In the process of detaching from identification to thought, the knots that kept us tied up will begin to surface. A high paced mind, hot flashes of inspiration and realization, and a general unleash of energy, (that can be highly overwhelming at times) arise as some of the symptoms.
Depending on the human, the placement of the knots and their intensity will vary. There are several factors that mold the persona. Held ideas, beliefs, and notions, influenced by external conditions, such as environment and history of relationships, plus the general current perspective of the world, to name a few. What causes the knots, is not the external circumstances, but to believe that these external circumstances are who you are. This is to live in ignorance of where consciousness comes from. To misidentify with thoughts and the reactive emotions, is a demonstrate of this ignorance.
In living in identification with the working of the mind, we have created an identity based on an accumulation of labels one has adhered to over time. This is the knotted human being. Whether positive or negative, they are still knots. The more one identifies with any label, the tighter the knot.
It is the undoing of these knots, that non-coincidently bring about what arises like an overwhelming release of energy. That is exactly what is occurring. In undoing the knots, in removing identification with the labels, you are freeing up energetic knots that you've attached to. Once the knot's intensity is overcome with open willingness and surrender to the label, one gets the glimpses of life's simplicity beyond mind. One gets glimpses of liberation.
When the knot has been undone, the key is to stay undone. It will feel similar to overcoming PTD, post traumatic disorder. When the persona is used to chaos, tightness, the reverse, natural unfolding loosely into life, will feel at best weird.
Realistically, prepare, especially if this is all new, to feel like the world you've lived in is falling apart. The mind will get really loud, and have all sorts of thoughts, and all you have to do is take each and every opportunity to sit back and observe it. Do no react, do not attach. Just breathe, undo, unfold.
Expect waves of this. But remember you are the ocean, not the tides.
Some knots unravel, release their energy, I feel lighter-brighter-more-in-alignment with What IS and i'm done and move on.
ReplyDeleteUnraveling _some_ knots for me is like unravelling a golf ball.
The hardest thing is getting the outer hard plastic cover off. Lots of tearing-cutting-sawing-bit-by-bit-the-cover-comes....off!
(Often just seeing the knot and acknowledging it - seeing the hard shell and trying to find a chink - is the hardest part)
Once the cover comes off i'd like to think I'm done and the ball just unravels. No, not quite. The ball is actually alot of rubber bands wound tightly around itself. There are these little bits of plastic still holding the rubber band in place.
So now I pick at these smaller, yet still resistant bits.
As the little plastic bits comes off, the golf ball actually starts unravelling itself faster and faster; at times seeming to spin in my hands it unravels so fast. Then...Pfft! it stops...Occasionally there is still a bit of plastic to pull off, but as it gets smaller and smaller it goes faster and faster, until, at the last, it just unravels itself and all I'm left with is a pile of rubber bands and some bits of plastic.
Oh. And the core.
Which is not hard, as the knot was originally. It really is kinda soft and squishy.
It's the layers and layers wrapped around it and the hard outer layer made it feel so hard.
Perfect addition to the analogy. It unravels the knot, in detail. It could be said, that the willingness to surrender, is the club. At first, we use the club, to play the game. Most people use their will, to play the game. A seeker for truth, isn't looking for the hole in one victory, or an end to the journey. On the contrary, he seeks to destroy the ball,the accumulation of attached beliefs, and the misidentification with the game.
ReplyDeleteI like the knot as metaphor.
ReplyDeleteHave you ever untied a very old piece of clothesline? It will try to wrap itself back into the shape it held before you released it.
This brings an image of DNA as a knotted string of illusion to mind.
Language is becoming useless again.
Yes! The shape is the residue, our habits and tendencies...and further demonstration that gaining awareness and shifting in perception is no piece of cake! ;-)
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